When things are going great BE PREPARED for set backs.

It's been a busy summer, of traveling, toddlering, and organizing play dates, and mommy days off.  I am very sad to see summer almost over.  I guess I am having a midlife crisis, I have decided to make some major changes in my life.  I have chosen to take control of my weight, with the loving support of the love of my life I have started a new diet program.  The decision to do this was brought about by seeing the success with one of my husbands coworkers.  I did some research, we went out there to talk to the  Medifast people and see what the program was all about.  My only skepticism was the Medifast food.  I had the preconceived notion that all diet companies that produce food only makes tasteless food that is less than filling and lest than desirable to anyone with a taste bud or two.  I took the plunge and did it.  I had a great first week the program was not hard to follow I ate four of their Medifast  meals that I would rather refer to as snacks.  Since everything seems to be yummy chocolate coated goodness.  I find it amazing that I lost weight eating what tastes like candy, ice cream, and chai lattes.  The food was much better than I had expected.  And the success of the first two weeks was phenomenal I am down ten pounds.  And I am looking forward to losing all the weight I put on after my pregnancy.  I am also looking forward to getting down to a weight I have never really been at.  I have always worn my "fat kid" label with pride I learned to love myself the way I am.  I just hope I can love me as skinny as much as I do fat.  

I choose to write on this simply because I have had a really bad week it being my birthday on Sunday and having had one of the worst in my life, I am feeling a little guilty for straying from the diet.  I find myself making excuses and making justifications for my little cheats.  Ultimately I know the only person I am cheating is myself, but I am hoping that in my confession I can find a light at the end of the tunnel.

From what I can tell I am still losing weight but the habits are what got me to this point are the ones I am trying to break.  For my birthday we made our rounds of visiting friends my husband being Nigerian I always find it hard to decline the large plates of food they offer, Since most of them take it personally as an insult that I don't want to eat food that they prepared especially for me.  This is most definitely a topic I need to take up with my Medifast counselor.